When Jah didn't give me the opportunity to earn the 600 euros I needed to fly 3 of us to Tenerife our nearest assembley that summer and we didn't make it I started asking why?
The conclusion I came to was that He didnt' really want me or we would have been able to afford it and gone. That was when my depression spiralled out of control and I ended up in hospital and the witnesses were too busy to help me when I came out so left it to my lovely kind and caring but non English speaking, non-witness neighbours to look after me even though most of the witnesses had to drive past my house to get to the KH.
It was the start to me waking up.